My Own World

waiting for a mirage

2008-01-17T14:04:00.000-08:00

waiting
till forever
for you
but u dnt knw
dnt see & dnt feel
I'm here screaming
& telling u tht i've been waiting
this moment to come
I thought one day
u ll wait me too
but it seems tht only
i ve to wait without any hope
i was here
when u were in need
& when i needed u
u disappeared
i care
i do
i wish i can tell u
but i 'd die & never tell u first
tired of being depressed
specialy in luv
wont this come to an end
it sucks when u just wait & wait & wait
for a mirage !!

December 07

2007-05-19T02:29:00.000-07:00

La tkhafi Salem ghefyan... mesh berdan
Nayem 3a talli betdall tsalli
W nater zahr el lawz bi nissan
Bi albo el iman, w mghatta bi 3alam Lebnan...

Btetloj el deni, w betshammes el deni
W ya lebnan bhebbak ta tokhlas el deni
Bkhabbik bi eynayi w b2ellak gheniyi
Taljak el mahabbi w shamsak el horriyi

Watani ya hkayi bel 3ezz mdawwayi
Leish hal add bhebbak ya ghayet el ghayi?
Bhebbak bi eynayi li2annak gheniyi
Taljak el mahabbi w shamsak el horriyi...

-----Sensitive

2007-04-07T17:31:00.000-07:00

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way
You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to
Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets
No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

What Do Guys Like About You?

SMILE

2007-04-07T17:25:00.000-07:00

Your Emoticon Is Smiling

Right now, you're feeling cheerful and content - without a care in the world.

http://blogthings.com/whatemoticonbestrepresentsyourightnowquiz/">What Emoticon Best Represents You Right Now?

لو كنت أختار

2007-04-06T08:20:00.000-07:00

لو كنت أختار

أختار الشمس

أختار النور

فى ضلام اليأس

و أحلم بنهار جواه مشوار

و قلوب بتحس

لو كنت أختار

أختار الشمس

لو كانوا سألونى فى يوم عنى

لو كانوا خلونى أعيش سنى

كنت أملا الدنيا بأفراحى

ولحد الفجر أفضل

أعيش على الاحلام بس

لو كنت أختار

أختار الشمس

أيام فاتت ضاع فيها إسمى

ولامرة يادنيا بتبتسمى

دلوقت بكون فى حروفى

بايديا هدمت جبل خوفى

ولا سامع للاحزان حس

كنت أختار

أختار الشمس

My Favorite song for wust el band..check it out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UzycT3Gwgis&mode=related&search=

Soul Mate

2007-04-04T14:13:00.001-07:00

You Are a Newborn Soul

You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance.
On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others.
You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative.
Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you.

Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter.
You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything.
You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships.
Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

GreeN

2007-04-04T13:57:00.000-07:00

Your Heart Is Green

Love completes you, but that doesn't mean you seek it out.
When love comes your way, you integrate it peacefully into the rest of you life.

Your flirting style: Laid back

Your lucky first date: Walking around aimlessly and talking

Your dream lover: Is both enthusiastic and calm

What you bring to relationships: Balance

What Color Heart Do You Have?

U R My Mirror..Where I Can See My Self CLearly

2007-03-20T12:19:00.000-07:00

lots of ups & downs...i'm too tired ..cant support it anymore.
I begin to hate my whole life, the college,the doctors ( who i already hate their arrogancy & stupidity) how i hate weakness! how i hate to show it! but there is a few persons ,i have never felet asahm to show this weakness in front of them..NEVER they are my miror where i can see myself CLEARLY cant feel weak when am surrounded by such amaizng ppl like u
But ,coz u r here in my life.. u spport me.. u give me the push..I WILL BE STRONG
i want to say THX to all my friends ,to Mum for her support in every situation i fell down & to Yassin (just for being there)
Dont knw how tough life could look like if u werent here in my life.. u fill the gap.. u knw wht i need & give it to me without asking it
Yasmine u dont knw how ur fone call has a positive effect on my mood
Nada , i guess u knw how important u r in my life. we share everything togheter our sadness,our joy & happiness ( although it's too rare these days) EVERYTHING..i cant imagine me without it u are here all the time
LUV U ALL

.....صديقى..

2007-03-20T07:40:00.000-07:00

صديقى... غاضب انت منى..
غاضب حتى الاشتعال
حد الانفجار...
و قلبى عليك ..!
جرحتك.. و المتك و كانت قسوتى غير مبررة..
كنت أقسو على نفسى فأؤلمك... كنت اغضب من نفسى فأجرحك!
انت اقرب لى من قلبى ... انت صديق العمر و شريك الجراح
و انت من يقتسم معى ألمى و افكارى و كل جنونى
انت من لا اخجل منه فى نزواتى
و لا ادارى عنه فشلى و لا انكساراتى
و لأنى تحولت الى قنبلة موقوتة
بفعل الجنون و الظروف و فعل الحماقات و كل الضغوط
و لأنك قريب و لأنك غالى و لأن ما بيننا يصعب أن يوصف
انت من عانى من شظايا الانفجار!
و لأنى كذلك و اغلى عندك فكان جرحى لك أقوى من الاندمال!
أعمق و اغرب من الخيال...انا جرحتك!
يا حبيبى و صديقى الجميل.. هل لازال من حساب الايام الجميلة باقى رصيد؟
هل بقى لى فى قلبك من عشرتنا الجميلة ما يمكننى من دعوتك... صديقى الجميل...
يا زمنى السعبد و مرآتى فى الحياة...
هل ؟... أعنى أممكن؟.. فقط أرجو...آمل ... اتمنى و احلم أن تتقبل اعتذارى..
و عذرى الوحيد انت فقط تفهمه...
هل تسمح لى بالاقتراب ؟
واعدك انى لن اجرحك ثانية... فقط سأحاول ان اضيف لحساب الايام الجميلة.... لحساب البسمة الصافية
لعلى بعد سنين اعوض دينى لك ..لعلى اسدد ما سحبته بحماقاتى و صبرك الجميل على
صبرك .. الذى سكبته من قلبك الذهب لتضئ حياتى..
اتعلم؟ ان جرحك ينزف من قلبى انا!
انت فى حياتى ..كابنى و ابى.. كاسمى و لونى .. انت الوطن
و ما الوطن الا قلب الاصدقاء
..انت فى حياتى لا يمكن استبدالك لأنك منى و لا يمكن ان اعيش بدونك..
هل رأيت ابدا من يحيا بلا عقل؟
يا عقلى الرزين... يا رجلى حين استند اليك و ولدى حين احتضن عينيك و صديقى حين يهطل المطر و ابى حين يشط بى الجنون و حبيبى حين اتعلم منك كيف يكون الحنان
رجوك سامحنى
ارجوك عاتبنى
ارجوك عاقبنى لكن لا تبعدنى عنك
فانا بدونك لا يمكننى التعرف على نفسى فى المرآة!

Belle.Partick Firori & Garou

2007-03-19T12:30:00.000-07:00

BELLE

C'est un mot qu'on dirait inventé pour elle
Quand elle danse et qu'elle met son corps à jour, tel
Un oiseau qui étend ses ailes pour s'envoler
Alors je sens l'enfer s'ouvrir sous mes pieds
J'ai posé mes yeux sous sa robe de gitane
A quoi me sert encore de prier Notre-Dame
Quel
Est celui qui lui jettera la première pierre
Celui-là ne mérite pas d'être sur terre
O Lucifer ! Oh !
laisse moi rien qu'une fois
Glisser mes doigts dans les cheveux d'Esméralda

Belle Est-ce le diable qui s'est incarné en elle
Pour détourner mes yeux du
Dieu éternel Qui a mis dans mon être ce désir charnel
Pour m'empêcher de regarder vers le Ciel
Elle porte en elle le péché originel La désirer fait-il de moi un criminel
Celle
Qu'on prenait pour une fille de joie une fille de rien
Semble soudain porter la croix du genre humain
O Notre-Dame ! Oh !
laisse-moi rien qu'une fois
Pousser la porte du jardin d'Esméralda
Malgré ses grands yeux noirs qui vous ensorcellent
La demoiselle serait-elle encore pucelle ?
Quand ses mouvements me font voir monts et merveilles
Sous son jupon aux couleurs de l'arc-en-ciel
Ma dulcinée laissez-moi vous être infidèle
Avant de vous avoir mené jusqu'à l'autel
Quel Est l'homme qui détournerait son regard d'elle
Sous peine d'être changé en statue de sel
O Fleur-de-Lys,
Je ne suis pas homme de foi

J'irai cueillir la fleur d'amour d'Esméralda

Fast Car

2007-03-17T13:29:00.000-07:00

You got a fast car

I want a ticket to anywhere
Maybe we make a deal

Maybe together we can get somewhere

Anyplace is betterStarting from zero got nothing to lose

Maybe we'll make something

But me myself I got nothing to prove

You got a fast car
And I got a plan to get us out of here

I been working at the convenience store

Managed to save just a little bit of money

We won't have to drive too far

Just 'cross the border and into the city

You and I can both get jobs

And finally see what it means to be living
You see my old man's got a problem

He live with the bottle that's the way it is

He says his body's too old for working

I say his body's too young to look like his

My mama went off and left himShe wanted more from life than he could give

I said somebody's got to take care of him

So I quit school and that's what I did

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so we can fly away

We gotta make a decision

We leave tonight or live and die this way
I remember we were driving driving in your car

The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk

City lights lay out before us

And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder

And I had a feeling that I belonged

And I had feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

You got a fast car

And we go cruising to entertain ourselves

You still ain't got a job

And I work in a market as a checkout girl

I know things will get better

You'll find work and I'll get promoted

We'll move out of the shelterBuy a big house and live in the suburbs

You got a fast car

And I got a job that pays all our bills

You stay out drinking late at the bar

See more of your friends than you do of your kids

I'd always hoped for better

Thought maybe together you and me would find it

I got no plans I ain't going nowhere

So take your fast car and keep on driving

You got a fast car

But is it fast enough so you can fly away

You gotta make a decision

You leave tonight or live and die this way

Angellllll

2007-03-16T18:09:00.000-07:00

Angel
Spend your time waitingfor that second chance

for a break that would make it okay

there's always one reason

to feel not good enough and it's hard at the end of the day

Ineed some distractionoh beautiful release

memory seeps from my veinslet me be empty

and weightless and maybe I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the ange lfly away

from here from this dark cold hotel roomand the endlessness

that you fear you are pulled from the wreckageof

your silent reverieyou're in the arms of the ange

lmay you find some comfort there So tired of the straight line

and everywhere you turnthere's vultures

and thieves at your backand the storm keeps on twisting

you keep on building the liest hat you make up for all that you lack it

don't make no difference escape one last timeit's easier to believe

in this sweet madness ohthis glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of the angelfly away

from herefrom this dark cold hotel roomand the endlessness

that you fearyou are pulled from the wreckageof

your silent reverieyou're in the arms of the angel

may you find some comfort there you're in the arms of the angel

may you find some comfort here.. all

Just Waiting My Angel ..

7abet 5arbish

2007-03-02T14:48:00.000-08:00

7abet 5arish
malya weshy w r2abty w gesmy..
dh ely fadli menak..7abet 5arbish
bokra te3mel 2eshra w trou7
zai gami3 el grou7
w at2aked b nafsy..
2n mafish 5aribsh mabtentehish
BY Khaled Kassab

Jeudi 18 Janvier

2007-01-21T11:54:00.000-08:00

C'est un trés beau joue,malgré la depression du jour précedent j'ai essayé de jouir au maximum ce jour là.. finir mes examens, une sortie avec mes amies et un sentiment d'amour et d'estime de ceux qui m'entourent , el l'important que j'ai vue YoYo la plus belle chose dans ma vie mnt et pour toujours , ahh et les fotos qu'on a pris c130tait tellement beau comme la chanson de chiméne Badi' ma préferee..Donc c'estait Ideal et la nuit sur l'internet j'etais tres tres conente ...
Mais le jour d'apres ...... ce n'etait pas le meme tous a fait different... mais j'essaie d'etre satisfaite la plupart du temps ..

I Took It Bak

2007-01-17T00:33:00.000-08:00

Well, I took it back my blog it has been a very long time since my last post.
Actullay i was surfing certain blogs & i discovered by luck tht i can log in my account coz i forgot the user name & the password.The Point Is :I 'm BACK .
Je vais ecrire au fur et a mesure isa.. i have an exam tomorrow & i didnt begin till now
rabena ystor.. it's right am bored & depressed and dnt wnna say why ! but i'm trying 2 promise myself tht i will forget anything can make me sooo disapointed..
A bientot

ALL BY MYSELF

2006-10-02T18:15:00.000-07:00

When I was young
I never needed anyone
And making love was just for fun
Those days are goneLivin' alone
I think of all the friends I've known
When I dial the telephoneNobody's home
All by myself Don't wanna be
All by myself Anymore
Hard to be sureSometimes
I feel so insecure
And loves so distant and obscure
Remains the cure
All by myself Don't wanna be
All by myselfAnymore
All by myselfDon't wanna live
All by myselfAnymore
When I was youngI never needed anyone
Making love was just for fun
Those days are gone
All by myselfDon't wanna be
All by myselfAnymore
All by myselfDon't wanna live
OhDon't wanna liveBy myself
by myselfAnymore
By myselfAnymore
OhAll by myselfDon't wanna live
I never, never, never
Needed anyone

MERDE MERDE MERDE

2006-09-27T17:22:00.000-07:00

sffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff begad it bad bad mood el awel gebal el devoirat w ba3deen moshkelet el mouvement ana msh msad2a en el mouvemetn mmken yet2fel bgd !! 3omri ma t5ayalt en dah mmken y7sal bgd
ah hwa el mouvement 3eb2 w araf w mot3eb w kol el kalam dah bas 3omri ma sfkart eni 7amshi mn el mouv 3shn hwa et2fal
da 3'ir el hws el ktirrrrrrrr awi elly 3andy msh 3rfa a3mel eih el s3a 2 w nos now w 3andy koleya 8 w nos w lsa i did nothing begad i m .. dnt knw wht 2 say really am shocked w msh 2adra astw3eb elly by7sal
ya Rab help us ya Rab

HAve u ever been selfish??

2006-09-17T23:10:00.000-07:00

Think a little bite , have u ever been selfish with ur friends? Do u care about them & they dnt care about you?
Here's my advice :Dont put someone in ur priority while he puts u as an option.Do you why, coz tht's totaly unfair, why u have 2 think & care about someone u can also react with their thoughts & problems as if it was urs & when u r in need, u find NOONE around u!!
when i think a little bit slowler this kind or categorie of friends , i guess we can classyfi selfesih friends into 2 categories : the first one who wants 2 take ONLY they cant hear any one else but her voice ,they cant see others problems ... ect
I have seen thos extremly selfish category in the college mainly it was 2 girls like tht first one she had a lot & lot of problems
the other one love 2 create her BIG BIG problmes, the best thing u can ever do with thoses persons is IGNORING coz when u will be in need u wont find anyone who can help or even listen u so to cut it short get rid of this ppl, but do u knw i cant stopp hearing them dnt knw why but i love 2 hear others's problems & try 2 help them maybe i cant help but i feel tht hearing is a VERY BIG favor but u better do it with someone who deserves.
The second category ,they r ur friends, they love u & they love 2 hear u but they can surprise u in being SELFISH with any introductions ,handle with this selfish caracter in case it wontlast & if they last selfish u have 2 add them 2 our first category.
I just want 2 say smth at last : before u call ur friend i mean ur best one have u ever why u call him or her?
just u want 2 talk
or u need him or her & u want her help in ur problem
or u want 2 b sure tht's him or her r fine & coz u miss ur friend
or just u wanna talk about urself who deserves the care from all the ppl around ,same time there isnt anyone who deserves ur care coz u r a super person!!!

1st post new bolg

2006-09-12T11:41:00.000-07:00

It's my second blog, i left my first one a long time ago even i forgot my pass so i decided 2 create a new one. I dnt knw y evrey time i decide 2 write, i write nothing.
I think tht's writting is v important i remember tht i encourage my best friend 2 write but she's totaly diffrent than me she writes like the great writers.
S0 wht makes me write again my new friend Engy Mosleh, i was upset & when she knew tht she wrote a short story about me "Ouja's island" i like it a lot as i like her writer she's very friendly & kind although i dnt knw her a long time ago i felt tht she 's a close one 2 my heart.
la vie est belle ,non la vie n'est pas si belle. Par contre la vie est pleine des obstacles qui ns entravent mais on doit les surmonter pour survir c'est mon point de vue mais le probleme est ce qu'on peut penser de cette maniere quand on est en face d'un tel obstacle : Je pense pas.
La semaine derniere quand j'etais en sainai ,le jour de retour j'ai reveille a 5 hrs du matin, j'ai vu le lever du soleil , c'etais le plus beau sence que j'avais vue ds ma vie.
Je pense que cette scene m'a donne bcp d'energie, d'espoir ds cette vie. J'ai perdu cet espoir depuis longtemps gaund mon anniversaire etait venudans des tres mauvaises circonstances .
J'ai bcp de dire ici mais je ne sais pas d'ou commencer. Aujourdh'ui je suis dans un tres mauvias mood, comme d'habitude j'avais un querelle avec mon pere hier a hrs 3 AM pour une raison banale , j'ai dormis en pleurant c'est pas la premiere fois et ca ne sera plus la derniere puisque je suis sensuelle et comme mon pere le dit " je ne fais pas ce qu'il veut"; simplement parceque je suis une humaine pas un robot qui fait ce que les autres demande , j'aime etre indepandente, je suis une personnalite qui refuse les instructions des autres tant que je ne suis pas convaincue de ce qu'ils disent.
Maintenant j'essaie de ne pas parler avec lui pour eviter aucune probleme avec lui, j'espere qu'il changera un jour ,je l'aime bcp mais ce qu'il fait construit un bloque entre nous.
j'ai prendre un pacte avec moi meme de ne lui demander aucune chose pour eviter de lui parler mais vraiment j'espere de mon coeur qu'il changera et de redevenir mon pere que je connaisse.
Papa je t'aime bcppppppppp, et pardon si je t'ai dit qlq ch inconvenable.
TO BE COMPLETED TOMORROW ISA................ 2 TELL U WHT WILL HAPPEN

2006-09-10T16:43:00.000-07:00